Well I have been on a roll with Art Journaling thanks to Annies art journal group (https://www.facebook.com/groups/artjournalwithannie/) You can click the link and join. She puts up a song a week and other inspiring art to do.
Here is a pic of this weeks journal page to the song STAND by REM
I made a video on my youtube and you can check it out here to see my quick process. It was a spur of the moment thing this week. i sat down and thought hmmmmmm….. I will just sit and play.
Two words that have great meanings separately but together…are so powerful! It has been a very hard month for me. Actually this is the second worse month of the year for me, the first being December. That is the month my son committed suicide. He was 19. This year on May 29, he would of been 22.
I also made a business decision to go back on my own creating and doing my art and jewelry. Having chronic illnesses and the medicines you must take are pure hell. My energy level is low and I want to create for me and when I am able. It is just much more satisfying to me. And I don’t beat myself up for not being able to do for others.
I have learned lessons over the years that I wish I didn’t have to. When I first got ill at 28, I lost friends, very close friends or so I thought, due to me not being able to hang out all day at the pool anymore or do all the things we used to. They dropped like flies. That happened quite a bit through my journey. When my son passed we were flooded by people supporting us and his memorial was packed but two, three weeks passed and everyone went back to normal and we didn’t exist in the same way. Understandable as the tragedy didn’t happen to them but still sad as to this day we still suffer his loss greatly. I went through a period of sadness and meaness and I fought with everyone who crossed me. Those who understood the pain I was in just let me go with the feelings, others walked away, sometimes making the situation worse to get me going even more without understanding or caring that I was in pain. I always wondered what they would of felt like or acted like if they lost one of their children.
But I am older now-maybe more mature? I don’t fight or care what others say about me. I have learned that I am the only one it affects. They do not care, they say and act as they choose-and move on to the next thing and I am stuck in hate, anger and betrayal. I am letting it all go and moving on. And I hope you do too as everyday small things happen that change your mood instantly. We shouldn’t let it! Find the people who love you, follow you, are there for you and hold on to them. Concentrate on them but mostly concentrate on yourself. For every one person who does not like you or talks about you or whatever, there are 5 who DO love you and like you!!!! I have many friends who love me for me and those outweigh any of the bad ones. BE KIND TO YOURSELF!!!!!!!!
I haven’t Art Journaled in a long time. Recently my friend Annie opened an art journal group where she puts up songs and you listen to them and journal how it makes you feel or what you get from the song. I did the first prompt and it made me remember just how much I do love painting and drawing and everything I haven’t done in so long! It made me feel better about my situation and got the ball rolling to keep making Art. I am very thankful because I am now creating MY art daily! Here is the group if you want to join. It is private so no outsiders can see if you are sensitive with sharing how you feel. https://www.facebook.com/groups/artjournalwithannie/
Thank you for baring with my rant and here is to all of us and NEW BEGINNINGS! I am going to add the 2 videos I did for the first song in the group and if you like it please sub to my youtube as I put new stuff up several times a week!
I DID MY SHOW TODAY LIKE I ALWAYS DO MONDAYS AT NOON! WAS GOING TO SHOW REALLY COOL STUFF AND THEN CAME…..LINQTO AND THEIR PIXELATION! EVERYONE WHO CAME ON CAMERA WAS PIXELATED! MY DEMOS WERE TOO SO IT WAS PRETTY MUCH A WASTE OF EVERYONE’S TIME! I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE WHO STAYED AND WENT THRU THE HELL WITH ME AND SUPPORTED ME—SOME CANT GET IN ROOM SOME GET KICKED OUT——UGH WHAT A MESS! THEY WIDENED THE SCRENN BUT DID NOT MAKE CAMERA OR ADJUSTMENTS WIDEN SO IT LOOKS LIKE A PIXELATED HORROR MOVIE! I HOPE THEY GET IT TOGETHER SOON! HERE IS THE REPLAY AND SOME PICS —
MY SHOW CAN BE FOUND HERE MONDAYS AT NOON EST AND REPLAY FROM TODAY HEREhttp://www.linqto.com/PlaybackRoom.aspx?roomname=knittingandthings&name=SingleExplicit_2011_11_21_11_07_26_352